Life teaches you something or the other each day ..... I am having tough days since last week ..as my grandpa has injured his bone and is admitted in the hospital and i have to be at the hospital from 9 pm to 9 am in the morning without sleeping ...but its a part of your duty and gotto take as it comes .....i find ways to survive the night without sleeping ...whether its my i pod or a laptop from a friend or its the same old favorite book ...icon Steve jobs .....its all done ...no more alternatives available ...at last an alternative was provided by the lord which was quite unwanted but left me unslept that night .....!!
My grandpa is admitted in a ward which has four beds in the room ...as no private rooms were available ...which added to my concern to survive the night ....and right in front of his bed was admitted an 18 or 19 year old boy called Dhanraj...the day my grandpa was admitted i saw him ...he was sleeping quietly ; without any gestures to make his presence felt in the room. HE WAS ALONE without anyone beside his bed. He looked good and sober ... but had a dreadful disease ...Tuber culosis !! He was supplied blood ..as he had only 1% of haemoglobin in his blood ..whereas the normal amount should be 14% or so . But he looked normal to me when i saw him first , with no signs of pain on his face . He laid on his bed calm and composed.
But couple of days after that ...one night he was feeling very uncomfortable ....he use to be alone in the hospital ...no one accompanied him ...and that was because he had a step mother ....his father was not at all interested in him .....and the reason for that was he also had a psychological disorder.... he was not like other mature people of his age ....his father had two other childrens of his step mother...so he was least interested in Dhanraj ...and hardly visited the hospital. He was told to get a CT scan report as soon as Dhanraj was admitted in the hospital ...but he kept avoiding it saying its unnecessary ...and the doctors just want it without any specific reason....every time the doctors visited him ...the same old drama of his refusal and doctors insisting for the report ....and the only one affected of this issue was poor Dhanraj.
As always he was alone at night ...laid on his bed , but was feeling more and more uncozy everyday. I was sleeping on the floor as i normally do .. because there are no extra beds available for the patient's visitors ....and Dhanraj was feeling lot of pain in his hands ..of which the blood supplying I.V had just been removed.....so he called out to me at around 2 : 30 or so as i was the only one awake at that time in the ward....he said " BHAISAHAB SISTER KO BULAO NA " i could feel the pain he was going through ...i immediately called the nurse ...and she came and all she did was consoled him as the pain would slow down ...and it did after some time and he slept at last. Next morning i left for home at 9 o clock as my duty is from 9 to 9 in the hospital and when i saw him he looked fine ... sleeping on his bed.
And the same day evening when i went to the hospital at 9 ....as i entered the ward i heard odd shouts ... as " maaru naam Lalji chhe " ..... " mane tv jovu chhe" ....." maara haath maa kaaayik aapo " ..... and many more such shouts . And it was no other that Dhanraj shouting at the top of his voice . The surprising thing was that he was shouting " maaru naam Lalji chhe" which means " My name is Lalji " ..but his name was Dhanraj ...and Lalji was the name of the father of the patient beside his bed ..who took really good care of Dhanraj when he use to be alone. Even Lalji bhai was confused as in why is he shouting out my name as his own. But we cant even think of the pain that 18 year old boy was going through .....fortunately or unfortunately ...both his so called parents were present the whole day as they were told by the doctors that he is critical and needs to be taken care by them personally and no one else is responsible for that. In spite of the presence of his parents ...seeing him in pain he was devoid of the love that a child expects from his parents. Not even once did his father or mother embraced him ....at times i felt like i should go and embrace him and console him to some extent i could. He was literally moving all over the bed ...not conscious of anything ..not even of passing urine and stool. He was continuously saying the same old words ....and moving all over the bed ....his mother and father handling him of his hands and legs ...but it was very difficult to handle him ...his father said at last ..." let him do whatever he want to ...let him fall down off the bed ...he will know then" ...he didnt get the seriousness of the situation ...he felt like he is behaving childish and not listening to them because of his psychological problem....but the matter was different ..he was actually in great pain ......he was then shouting .." i cant breath properly " but that was not considered seriously as well. At last as he was not easy to handle him ...he was tied with the bed of his hands and legs... he was still retiliating ...pushing harder.....but was tied very tight with the bed. At 1:30 or so ....he started shouting loudly ....every other patient in the ward was facing problems in sleeping because of the noise he was making. His parents were sitting besides his bed holding his hands ..just to artificially show some concern ..that anyone could make out !!! I was looking at him continuously ....but i expected that it is a temporary problem and he might get well by tomorrow. But after 2:00 am he was taking long breaths .....he had problems with breathing tremendously. Imagine a patient given three injections back to back for sleeping and still not getting any sleep and was shouting and screaming on the bed. Finally he had no energy left to speak anything !! He couldn't speak any more and was just taking long breaths and was trying to set free of the bandages tied to his body with the bed. I was still looking at every action of his .... i had i pod with me ....i thought for a while to go and put the earphones in his ears and play the holy names of the lord ...not because i thought he may die now ..but i thought it may ease him down a bit ...but then i did not dare to take the risk s many people were present there and in the middle of it imagine someone going and making a patient listen to an i pod so i thought i better just keep praying for him. But neither my prayers nor the medications could help him any more ...at 2: 25 am or so ....i was looking at him and he stopped breathing suddenly .... he was no more taking those long breaths which he was taking for the last 20 minutes or so ....the complete ward was now silent as his sound no more echoed in the room.
His parents sitting besides him felt for a moment as if he is sleeping finally. But i kept looking at his belly ..it was no more moving ....and his eyes depicted that the case is done ! But still for around 10 mins or so ..i didnt say anything ....then ashokbhai ( relative of the patient beside my grandpa's bed ) saw his eyes and he understood that now is the time to call the doctors ...so he told me to go and call the doctors .....i went to a nurse called krishnaja ....i told her to check Dhanraj as he is no more moving ....she told me ..." USKO PARESHAN MAT KARO USKE SONE DO ABHI " ...i was amazed to hear that ...a nurse couldn't make out that he is not just sleeping now.... and i insisted her to see him ...but she attended some other patient at that moment who had swollen his hand due to misplacement of I.V off the nerve. Then a wardboy called Ashok saw him no more moving and he checked his breathing and touched over his belly and then he immediately called the senior nurse ...and then the RMO's were called ...... his parents couldn't believe it that he was no more as they felt he is sleeping now . The team of the RMO's and the nurses tried a lot many things ...but it didnt help .....finally it was declared ....HE IS NO MORE !!! And i could see his mother crying a lot .....but his father ......he was such a rascal he did not even had a tear in his eyes ....He was asking Ashok bhai ,,as in " what wrong did i do in this ...??? How did this happened suddenly ....now is there any fault on our side ...we tried our best " And I felt like slapping him on that very moment ...but couldn't .....!!!
There are many people who cry to have a child ..who are childless ...they go to various orphanages to adopt childrens....and here was a father who had a child but did not bother for him. Such people doesn't deserve to have a child ....!! How can a father see his own child dying in front of his eyes ...especially someone like Dhanraj ..who was so innocent that he could not even display his emotions as an ordinary person of his age could have. But its all about our deeds in the past that makes us land into situations like these....it was such a horrible night ...and made me think that life is so uncertain ....we think so many things that we shall do this ...do that ....plan for hundreds of dreams in life ...to keep our parents happy ....etc etc ....but just a flickering push of the nature against you and you are gone !!! All that dreams and responsibilities are smashed into pieces. I went and asked one of the doctors as in what happened ...in such a short duration he got so critical ...and the first question he asked me as in ..." who are you " i said i am with the patient at the opposite bed ...and then he told me that " He had T.B and it had entered his brain in the morning " .... so you never know ..what keeps happening inside your body all the time ...anything can happen to anyone ..anytime ...Now with the advancement of sciences and technology ...now there are thousands of ways in which you can die any time any moment !!!
So its a real story i felt which is worth learning from ...that we should be thankful to the almighty lord that he is providing us good health everyday as we get up every morning ....and we have good parents and caretakers of ours who provide us such comfort ....whether its emotionally , economically , academically or in any other ways ....we should always be thankful to the supreme for that ... as i think nothing in this world can save you other than his and his devotees blessings !!!
